Ever wonder what it feels like to be someone’s regret? I can’t say I have, but I now know what it feels like. And I can say I’m not a fan.
Is there a sense of vindication? Yes. It’s vindicating knowing I actually did mean that much to him, even though he never acted on it while knowing how much I cared about him and wanted to be with him. But there’s also pain and heartache.
It took me dating my Cowboy to really get over the heartache of wanting someone you can’t have. And this man had four years to date me, but he chose to keep me on the back burner until he found I was dating someone else. Then, once he couldn’t have me, he was willing to open up how he felt about me. When it was too late. I’m relieved to have closure, but hurting still. I don’t like being partially responsible for someone’s pain.
But I’m more than thankful to have found a man willing to tell me how he felt about me from the very beginning and who tells me what I mean to him every single day. That is the kind of relationship every girl deserves.